This book is another one that has helped me. Written in collaboration by 22 grieving parents, it tells their personal stories in an unvarnished way. The good thing is that it relieves the sense of "crazy" you carry inside, because it talks about things you thought only you felt. And some of the contributors feel worse than you, like the man who accidentally drove his tractor over his child, or the devastated parents dealing with their child's suicide. There is some twisted momentary relief in the fact that we don't have it the worst.
Here are some helpful topics the book covers--just the chapter titles tell a story:
Perhaps the best thing is the sub-title: Living with the Death of a Child. Apparently, they've learned to LIVE with it. It doesn't feel like you really live after your child dies, you go through the motions. So I'm a skeptic about learning to live again...but I'm giving it time. We shall see.
Psalm 103:12 Like as a father pitieth his children, so the Lord pitieth them that fear him. For he knoweth our frame; he remembereth that we are dust.