Saturday, May 12, 2012

Happy Mother's Day to Me

From my body born.
I love my three babies. Love. Them. Completely.

Motherhood has been both the sweetest and most aching part of my life's journey.

I miss my beautiful boy who is in Heaven; I last saw him around Mother's Day four years ago.  

We laughed together at a poolside breakfast on Mother's Day in Oahu 2008. A moment of bliss.

My memories are precious pieces of a short life. Dancing at a special wedding so long ago.

Walking me down the aisle at his sister's wedding years later.

There is an invisible cord that connects us and I refuse to say goodbye to him--only hello.

At the same time, I am so thankful for the two beautiful girls who continue to share my life here. My loving husband, too, who is also responsible for these beautiful children.
Thank God for His tender mercies and the deep comfort they provide.
They are my privileged place in life.

Hurt and deep comfort, both living inside my broken open mother's heart.
Life is such a strange brew of joy and sorrow, parallel tracks of good and bad, smooth and rocky pathways that cannot be avoided.

Mother's Day is a reminder that I don't get everything I want in this life.
Despite my tears, I have hope.  
There is a place where there is only comfort, joy, and good;
a place where there are no more tears.
 I look there.
I am resolute in awaiting that good day
when we will all be

He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."
Revelation 21:4 


Anonymous said...

Happy Mother's Day to you as well. I love the statue at the end, she is beautiful. Your words describe it all and
we lean on those who are left behind with us. xoxo Sharon

karen gerstenberger said...

Amen to that.
Dear Karen, what a blessing you are, as a mother, wife and friend. I know this even from this distance! God has blessed you with your beautiful family, and you have blessed your family by being YOU. Praying for deep comfort and love for you on this weekend, and always.

christine said...

Sweet dear friend...I love the fierceness in your strong clear voice. It is true...we have a HOPE that lays before us. I embrace you this Mother's day sweet friend. May you enjoy this wonderful day of remembrance...celebration of the joy of being call "mom". A true privilege and honor given to some of us. love you always.

Liza Pierce said...

Happy Mothers Day Karen

Robin said...

Happy Mother's Day, dear friend. We will make it through another one!

Van Down By The River said...

I love you Karen. Happy mother's day to a beautiful mama, inside and out. Love those photos... can't wait to be with you all in 1 short week xoxo

Anonymous said...

Aloha nui loa and Happy Mother's Day. Your journey inspires and challenges all of us. Thank you for your open heart.

Terry Davis

Anonymous said...

You are a blessing to many people ... My mom went to "the place"... Not just any place 3 days before Mothers
Day.. 2008.... I miss her so very much.. I can't imagine your loss.. But I know that you are a wonderful,caring woman with so much to give everyone that shares your space and when we all get to "The Place".. I hope I can share some of that space with you!:) Robin H

Anonymous said...

Sympathy, empathy and love for a difficult month for you, Joe and family.
Much love and comfort.