Saturday, May 12, 2012
Happy Mother's Day to Me
From my body born.
I love my three babies. Love. Them. Completely.
Motherhood has been both the sweetest and most aching part of my life's journey.
I miss my beautiful boy who is in Heaven; I last saw him around Mother's Day four years ago.
We laughed together at a poolside breakfast on Mother's Day in Oahu 2008. A moment of bliss.
My memories are precious pieces of a short life. Dancing at a special wedding so long ago.
Walking me down the aisle at his sister's wedding years later.
There is an invisible cord that connects us and I refuse to say goodbye to him--only hello.
At the same time, I am so thankful for the two beautiful girls who continue to share my life here. My loving husband, too, who is also responsible for these beautiful children.
Thank God for His tender mercies and the deep comfort they provide.
They are my privileged place in life.
Hurt and deep comfort, both living inside my broken open mother's heart.
Life is such a strange brew of joy and sorrow, parallel tracks of good and bad, smooth and rocky pathways that cannot be avoided.
Mother's Day is a reminder that I don't get everything I want in this life.
Despite my tears, I have hope.
There is a place where there is only comfort, joy, and good;
a place where there are no more tears.
I look there.
I am resolute in awaiting that good day
when we will all be
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."